never

I hate it how everything seems to be fine initially and then it falls apart later.


  I thought there were people I could rely on and tell my problems to.I thought they understood the real me and cared for me.Never did any of these was real.

  These days came and went.I feel like everything is a blur,with so many things that has happened.

  Call it hopeful,call it stupid,there were so many things that I had anticipated but never did any of them turned out the way I expected it to be.

  I'm losing hope,I'm giving up.So in the end,it was just a dream.People I met and saw everyday were just ghosts.I loved them,I loved my new friends but why do I feel that the feelings are not genuine.Do they know how I feel?Or they just think that they are doing this for the sake of doing it?

  Never was anything real anyway. Ugh, why do I always feel things so deeply?To think that I was important for once, what a joke.They will never feel what I felt,the true attachment.No they will never.

  No one will anyway.They think I'm kidding but never have I ever regretted my decision to sacrifice myself for the ones I love.

  I wonder if I even matter.People just like to toy with my feelings because I'm soft hearted.They like to make me feel important but left me when they're bored or when they find better company.

  Never did anyone even stay....