fate

Isn't it weird,how life works sometimes?It's all a tangled web,and the more people we meet,the more tangled the web.

I can't help but to wonder how this magical thing called life works.You see,all it takes is one person.One person to change your whole goddamn life.And that is how,I believe in fate.

I don't believe that it's pure coincidence,neither do I believe that it's all useless.Everything happens for a reason.Yeah you probably heard that a billion times but today I'm going to show you what magic is.

I guess everything started ever since I was a kid(haha obviously).I mean so many people,most of which were really nice to me and as I grow up I realise many people are nice to me too.Then one day in primary 3,I was assigned to a table made.I didn't know that person at all so we didn't actually talk the whole time we were sitting next to each other.Little did I know how freaking much this person would change my life.People come and go every time.People who were nice to me came and went.At another turning point of life,people who were nice to me became a big thing.Everyone knew.The following year,people who were nice to me were all in the same class as me,even my previous table mate.Obviously,I still didn't talk to this person at all until this person texted me and asked me random questions.That was when everything started.When we started becoming "best friends",everyone knew about it.I swear that period of time was the best memory someone could every give to me but sadly,we drifted quite a lot and we lost contact eventually and that's how it ended. 

Before me and my table mate drifted apart,I made a new friend and became quite close to this new friend but everything is complicated.But from time to time,things will happen to me and somehow,they all click like a jigsaw puzzle.For instance,if I were to meet someone,it probably would remind me of a certain thing of the past and i will reflect on it.

I feel like our whole path is already paved for us,just waiting for us to step on it.And be it whether you like that path or not,you still got to carry your butt and walk through it.At times,it may seem hard and you feel like giving up,but remember,no matter what,it's only moving forward,no more backwards,and you've got to remind yourself that.Yeah,memories will slow you down,but you have to have to have to get up and move on.

I don't know if this makes sense but whatever I just feel the need to write this if you don't get it it's alright 

Be +

I think my new fav word would be Be+.Okay,firstly this is not a chemical symbol. It actually stands for be positive.Yeah you got that mate?

So if we're gonna have to live in this pathetic little society for a about 100 years or so, we gotta do something about the way we look at things.It's not easy to live nowadays,which is why I hope that everyone gets to see the other perspective of things and stop thinking so negatively.

Being negative can be disadvantageous to yourself. You make your self esteem drop so much such that you feel useless,stupid and every other things. You will find that no matter how hard you try,you never made it.Well,this is probably one of the largest problems that I have faced or am still facing.But now that I learnt about it,I finally solved it.

Stop comparing yourself with others.That's the key thing. I swear everyone's different and I believe that you're beautiful and strong in your own way.Don't let your insecurities get in the way pal.Just look at yourself in the mirror and say "Yes,I'm beautiful and smart. "You can do it.

Of course I know that life makes it so hard for us these days.There are so much obstacles to overcome.Well,obviously if you think that way,it's definitely gonna affect you.Just don't think about it and it will get by quickly.You know how they say "Time pass when you're having fun." You gotta have fun and enjoy every moment so that time will seem like it passed fast and you can stop worrying about everything.

Stop giving a shit about those who bring you down.In life,we meet so many different people,in which majority of them comment about your behaviors or actions to you,which leads you to feel suckish.Well,the truth is,you don't really have to care about them,be it they are your teachers or parents or elders or seniors or juniors.No,I'm not asking you to be rude.Firstly,they are not perfect humans so they have no rights to judge you.Secondly,they are not angel.You may think that oh,if someone of a higher authority judges me it means that they're right. HAHAHAWHATAJOKEHAHAHA.

But seriously though,no one else know yourself more than yourself so they have not a single right to judge you at all.Be it they say you're shy or timid or noisy or whatsoever,you still gotta ignore them because they don't know you,AT ALL. To me,you're all equally beautiful,I don't care who you are. You may have your own side of the story they don't know of.I trust you,I always will.

Just believe in yourself and have faith.I hope that you will be yourself,no matter what they say.Be persistent and stick to your own personality and don't change just because someone doesn't like the way you act.Don't.I can't lose anymore people with unique characters because people are so fake everyone seems to be the same.You see,if you listen to their opinions and change yourself and everyone does the same,everyone's gonna be of the same perfect character,which is BTW,SO FAKE.

Hey,we're all created to be different right?So tell that to whoever in the world is  judging you that.If we're all supposed to act in the same manner,then why don't just create 7 billions of the same robot instead of creating us?We are humans and humans have flaws and specialities.

I hope this slightly changed your mindset on life and I hope it makes you think positively because why waste time on stuffs that bring you down,when you can enjoy life?Trust me,the moment you stop caring is the moment you start living.Don't be afraid to have your own opinions and do what you think is appropriate.That,I believe,is pretty and beautiful.

Stop judging

Okay.Time to get a little more positive this time.I felt that it was necessary for me to write this because it's such a prevailing trend that I can't help but to get mad at.

Of all the things that annoy me,this makes me mad the most.

You see someone or something you don't like,you start talking shit about it/them.You see someone for the first time and you already assume their character.What is wrong with people these days?!?!?

Living in a society with more people like this,it is no wonder everyone feel like commuting suicide.

Seriously,before you even open that ugly nasty big smelly mean mouth of yours,please use your puny little disgustingly dirty brain of yours to think whether it is the most appropriate thing to do.Sorry for the discrimination but I had to.

You're not them.You don't know how they feel.You don't know them. I am not only referring to those innocent people,I'm referring to everyone, in general,even those mean and bad kids,even those who judge others.Everyone.Everyone is fighting a battle you don't know about.You may think bad people are bad so you gotta fight them and be mean to them.Hey,bad people are good people too alright?It doesn't mean that voldemort should be discriminated against just because he's the villain.Everyone and everything have feelings.Treat them with care and respect.Come on, we're all grown ups aren't we?

I mean even if we disagree with their actions or behaviour,we can silently say it in our heads.We don't have to tell the whole world.We just have to keep it to ourselves and stop being an attention-seeking and a bad influencer.

Imagine yourself being judged by people,how would you feel?Before you do anything,just put yourself into their shoes and think.

The reason why society is so screwed up these days is because of people who have yet to understand a certain situation properly and start assessing it and giving it false accusations.

It is lame.It is uncool. If you think you're being funny by doing it,it isn't funny.What's funny is that the joke's on you.

People shouldn't care when being judged too.The more you care,the more vulnerable you are.You should just laugh it off or laugh at the person for judging because he's the one being lame.

Spare a thought for others.Stop being such an asshole for karma will descend upon you soon.Spread positivity around so that we all can create a better world for everyone to live in.:)

imprints

I don't really know how much I've got to emphasis on this topic.I felt that I have been harping on it since like forever but it's something that keeps bothering me and sometimes I really need to get it out of my chest. I'm sorry if you've heard this thousands of times but I'm still going to talk about it.

We meet so many people in our lives.And each of them play a specific role,whether big or small. That, is how I believed in fate.

But there are certain people,we wish that we were still friends with,and others glad that we are not friends any more.

Still, in which ever way,they still created a huge part of our memory.At some point in life,they have ever made us happy.We can't deny that fact and,it's near impossible to forget about them.

Some days, after all these times when you're already having a new restarted life and are not in contact with them any more, you miss them. You think back to when you used to do a certain thing at some point in time and created such wonderful memories together.That is the hardest to forget,which explains why they flashback in our minds all the time.It was like a phenomenon you know?

They are like monsters hiding in my closet,coming out to haunt me at night. Some times thinking about them even make me tear.I miss every thing.I felt that somehow we were still connected,so connected even time couldn't separate us.But still,we can't feel them physically.They are,at the same time,a thing of the past and all you're feeling right now is just the soul and broken pieces of what's left behind.The saddest thing is knowing is that there's no way you could rewind time.

You feel like going back,but you can't so you got to move forward.

There's still some times that it comes back and it leaves me wondering at night..oh what would I give to have them back?It's like a never ending vicious cycle and as we grow older and we make new friends and leave these friends,the cycle just becomes bigger when more people are added and each of them are like a capsule containing all your memories,which are the imprints they left in our hearts.

It's funny how people can leave such a big impact on us,on me.It's sad,yet beautiful at the same.It's untouchable,yet so close to us.

Treasure everyone right now,because that can be a thing of the past in no time.

In no time.

people

I really don't know what it is with people but they are really some powerful kind of creature who have the ability to heal you or harm you.

When you're at you're worst,they seem to be there for you,to comfort you,to be by your side.They are so nice that you really treasure having them by your side and it makes you wonder what would life be like without them.

Ironically,on the other hand,trusting someone gives them the ability to hurt you,to kill your soul.You hate them so much you wish they don't even exist.

It sucks when you know how the presence of a single soul can just make you feel so much better.

And when they are no longer around,it feels like they just suck the soul out of you.

Then again,sometimes you hate them.You hate them for every thing they do.You can't stand their attitude.You can't stand seeing them behaving in a way that you dislike.So you hate them.

But when they're gone,you start to miss them.

It puts me into a dilemma to think whether I should let people in.It's like the moment I let them in,I get so attached to them that it's so hard to let go.But then again they piss me off so much I wish I didn't know them.

I hate people.People are so complicated and difficult.I really don't know who to trust because you never know what they really treat your friendship as.You'll never know.And that's the scary part.They only look for you and care for you when they need you.They just throw you aside when they have done sucking up all your blood and leaving you dead. That's what everyone does,am I right?

How do you count someone as your best friend?A best friend is someone who is there for you no matter what happens.Even when the sky falls or you turn into an ugly toad,they will still stick with you regardless of what happens.But I guess that's not really the case right now.Many people make empty promises and they vow to be best friends with each other.But when one needs help,are you really there for them?Or are you there with them for the sake of faking it?If you're just trying to fake then get out.Get the hell out of here.I don't appreciate you.If sticking with me is such a pain in your neck,then why bother right?

Many people don't understand the reason why I secretly hate people,not because I'm mean(I certainly don't hate on people easily)but I just feel that this society is full of fakers and lies.It'll be stupid to trust all of them.

But when I get the chance to speak my mind,I'm the one who's at fault, apparently.I mean like why don't you look at how despicable you look in the mirror and then tell my how is this my fault.So it's my fault you're acting so spoilt?I can't stand spoilt people because I was raised to be an independent and well-groomed young lady.I certainly don't appreciate those who think that everyone has to listen to their instructions just t because they were not raised correctly.

See the bunch of stuffs I wrote?It expresses the way how people behave differently.

That's the power of people.I don't know if that's good or bad. But one thing for sure is that we just got to enjoy the ride and get through this.

i am dangerous

Anyone reading this right now,whoever you are, just stop.Stay where you are.Don't come close to me. Don't even try to get closer to me.

You see. I'm no different from a bomb. Not sex bomb but a real bomb.The one that can explode any time and have the potential to kill someone.

I'm different,not unique.Just different.There are so many things you don't know about me.People think I'm nice.So they get closer to me.Little do they know that I'm just a timebomb waiting to explode.

People expect so much from me, which they shouldn't. Some feel that I could do much for them.I keep giving others false hope.

But in the end,without realising,I destroy their soul when I could not fulfil their expectations of me.

I kill people's soul.I break people's heart.

And you think I don't care?

I having feeling the guilt burning in me for every single day that I live.And each day,I feel that I just kill more people than the previous day.

Bombs have feelings too.Just because they are the bad guys doesn't mean that you can just hate on them.

So,just stay away from me if you don't want to get hurt.I don't want to hurt anyone any more.I don't want to be a fire starter.I don't want to kill anyone.

Stop Chasing

So I feel like redoing this whole blog thingy because I feel that it's just kinda messed up.Or maybe not.I feel that as we grow up,our mindset tends to change and I guess there are some pretty nasty stuffs that I have said in my previous blogs and I totally do not want to look back on them.But I thought that it would be totally fun to keep those as memories but if you're reading this,please note that you're probably like that when you were younger too.

Life is such a weird thing.

I mean it's like we keep chasing after things in life.

But why?

Maybe it's because without all these,life would be not fun at all.Maybe because we are made to live to have a life and learn things.

I bet many people(including myself) keep wanting what's best for themselves.We get jealous,not gonna lie.We get angry.We get sad.

Sometimes these emotions lead to something bigger than what it seems like.However,at the end of the day, I ask myself and I think:What's the point?What's the point of trying to be the best?What's the point of trying to get good grades?What's the point of fighting so hard to be recognised?What's the point of trying to be popular?

At the end of the day, I realise that these are just untouchable qualities that destroy the innocent us and all the hopes and expectations we have of life.

It is definitely not one of life's point of being overly-obssesed with fighting for glory.Okay so you make your parents proud,you feel that sense of pride and admiration from everyone.

But are you happy?

I feel that I mindlessly chase after my goals and I often neglect the basic quality of life.Happiness.

I get too engrossed in trying to be the best in everyone because I don't want to be the last one,the worst one.I feel that I'm such a lousy person who have no talents whatsoever.I can't sing,dance, play a sports nor cook. I've never been in a dance class, art class,music class nor in any sports activity.I feel so useless.I felt that the only thing I could ever do was to express myself and my feelings in the most undesirable way ever,speaking.Even so,if you ever say the wrong stuffs,people hate on you.So I learnt to shut up.

My only hope was on my academics,which wasn't exactly the best either.My life soon depended on it, trying to please my parents in whatever way possible.

Then I look around me. Isn't that what everyone is doing as well?What's the point then?I feel like this just turned life into a competition where you have to kill your opponents. 

So is this what you want the next generation to be?A place full of back-stabbers and sabotagers?

That defeats the point of having a life.If everyone could take one step back  and look at the real reason why we were sent down here for and be a little less competitive(I mean it's good as it motivates us but..),life will definitely be much more meaningful. 

If we all stopped chasing after happiness and let happiness come to us,you will live life more fulfillingly.