Crying

Maybe crying once in a while is part of growing up.Sometimes you just need to let go of what's bothering you.It's perfectly fine and alright for anyone and everyone to cry.And maybe,sometimes you just need to confide in someone.Someone you trust and can talk to.Or maybe sometimes you just need to have some fun.You have been in the same old boring routine and you need to make a change to it.You improve yourselves to achieve a better and newer you,every day,every week,every month,every year.It's like urbanisation.

Or at least that's my definition of life.

There are just too many thoughts going through my mind.In fact everyday,I sit and observe others quietly and wonder to myself.I've watched so many people cry.Young ones.Old ones.Different problems.Same action.

The young ones often tend to cry because their needs aren't fulfilled.Old ones,too,cry for the same reason.But the difference is that the young ones are innocent and they cry for things that we may find unnecessary.Old ones cry for many other more complicated problems that they face in life.

But since crying is a process of growing up,we all shan't be afraid to cry.Crying makes us grow as people.If the young ones don't cry,how are they going to grow up?And how do they grow up by doing so?It is like the same thing for asking:How am I going to finish this big project?The answer is simple,once you have reached your maximum,you will always return to your minimum and you always find a way.It's the same thing for crying.When your emotions have reached its peak and you can no longer take it,you cry.After you cry,you lay on the floor thinking through the reasons of why you are crying.You find it stupid so you tell yourself you never cry for such things again.You learn from your mistakes and therefore you grow.Every time you cry about something,you learn not to cry for it.You gain something by crying,although you lost much tears.

So don't be afraid to cry.Everyone cries.I cry.Alot.I often cry in my room and I feel so alone and cold.But after crying,damn,my senses just wakes up and I learn many things.At first,I thought crying makes you a depressing kid and you feel like a fish out of water because you think normal people don't cry.They do.They just don't tell others.But crying relieves stress anyway so why not?

The next time your friends ask you to go for shopping,why don't you ask them to go for crying?

urbanisationxdental surgery

So I've been damn sick this week.39.5 degrees on Tuesday and I had to go home early from school.The highest temperature I've ever got in my whole entire life.I guess I might have as well fry my entire brain.Better now.Just cough and sore throat.It's been a really busy week and another waiting ahead.However,I'm glad that there are two days where I do not need to go to school because on Monday,there's e-learning while on Thursday,it's labour day.But there's like 5 class tests so it's a bit hard.):

Anyway,I was doing my literature and I feel that I wrote something in which I should take advice from.And maybe I should share it with you.

[The theme in the planners is urbanisation.The evidence is"They erase the flaws,the blemishes of the past,knock off useless blocks with dental dexterity."This metaphor compares urbanisation to a dental surgery.In urbanisation,this means knocking down old buildings."erase the flaws,the blemishes of the past"means that once the teeth are being extracted,the decayed teeth which were damaged and rotten have lost their functions,are no longer there to remind others that the pair of teeth was previously ugly.Similarly,in urbanisation,buildings which were knocked down were old,ugly and damaged.After being knocked down,they are not there to remind people that the city was previously ugly.It can then look presentable to others.This shows that in life,in order to look and be presentable,we must keep with our appearance and we have to keep ourselves updated with all the new technologies and the new generation.We must keep moving forward but not stay in the past.This way,we will be able to improve ourselves and become better or even succeed in life.Hence,the theme in the planners is urbanisation.]

Well,I guess that this has kind of taught me some things that I never knew I could ever though of.I never thought of moving on but yet I could write it out.Perhaps that was the other side of me.

I hope that the other side of me can teach this side of me how to get on my feet and move on.

unspoken words(the one)

Are there actually words that suddenly pop into your minds sometimes?Words that you have been dying to say but never get the chance to?These are the unspoken words of mine.Sometimes,there are just so many things I would like to ask or tell friends that I haven't contacted in a while now but perhaps it's already too late.

Everything has changed.They are not the way they used to be anymore.People come.People go.People change.Nothing really stays forever.They used to be called your friends.Then they say friends are forever.But forever wasn't part of the deal at all.They have all grown in a way that I can't understand them anymore and neither can they understand me at all.They have became a stranger in which I don't know who they are anymore and they don't know who am I anymore.

Someone who you used to share secrets with chatting until late at night,someone you go shopping with,someone who doesn't mind lending you her skirt,someone who helped you so much,she's the one who built your walls up when they are breaking down.She's the one who is always there for you.The one with the sweater when you're cold.Isn't it ironic to see the one disappear from your life like that?You feel like you have been stabbed in the back although nothing has even happened.

The one was a nice and helpful person.The reason how you became friends with her.It was simple.She sat behind you the first day of school.You guys started smiling and made friends.When you needed help,she was always there to help you.

You went through alot with her.You cried,you laughed,you did everything with her.Although this friendship was only a year,you felt like it had been 10 years.You guys texted everyday.Talking about all sorts of stuffs each day.At the end of the year,you brought home so many wonderful memories of her and you.Almost everywhere you went and everything you did involved her.

But have you ever wondered,what happens when she just disappears from your life like that?Although you guys are still connected,she's like a billion miles away from you although she is still there is a third world space called the social media waiting for you to text her.But you refuse.It's hard to move on because of her.But she has already moved on.
Perhaps this is a lesson that I have learnt.That nothing really last forever.Even if it does,people do die.They can't bring anything with them to their coffins.In life,we have got to have friends,but we just have to beware and be careful not to be too clingy with your best friend.Because if one day they ever leave you,it is going to be really hard to accept the fact that they are no longer there.They are just gone,like the wind.

It's time for us to accept that life is just unfair like this.They put a person who is your perfect friend in your life.And take them away so suddenly.Therefore,we have to go for a change.Accept that they are no longer the same person you used to know.