It scares me how happy I am right now.
It scares me how this could change any time.
So recently,I've been having weird dreams again.My dreams are scaring me. This is the period of time when major changes happen and this happens to be the time when I get close to many people.I hang out with them every day but somehow the moment I reach home,I feel that sadness inside of me.
I guess it really makes me panic inside and be anxious about how I don't want to lose these people I have right now.Experiences have told me many times that when I get close to someone and I enjoy their company,they will soon drift away from me and our relationship will turn sour.
Okay yes,I may have found my purpose of life but that could change any time for me.That's why I really hate getting too close to someone.When you're too close,you get bored of them and you see their true colours and flaws.It's not that I will do that,it's others who find me told boring. I'm scared of that.Everyone says that they will stay but after they find better company,it will all change.
I'm just wondering if things will still be the same when school reopens.
It scares me how I am so afraid of myself.
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