I must say.This book is like damn important to me.It's where I store all my little thoughts.It's like my diary but it's not really because they're just thoughts.
-Lost-
For the past few months,I guess I just lost my sense of music.It's like when you put on those earphones and you hit play on your music then start skipping all the songs.Songs just became ten times scarier than usual and I didn't had the mood to listen to them anymore.I didn't know what had happened to me.Until I recalled and realised.
There was once when I was listening to 'Already Gone' by Kelly Clarkson.Then for some reasons I started crying.On the train to somewhere.The end.Perhaps that was the reason why I didn't dared to listen to music anymore.But ever since I listened to the radio and try to feel better,I gained back my sense of music.It's weird though.
And I gathered some pretty interesting thoughts this week.
-Action speaks louder than words-
There are times when you need to care less.The more you care,the more unnecessary worries you will have and that will lead to affecting your mood.If someone really loves or care for you,they will show it.For the simple reason of action speaking louder than words.I read the magazine and found something they said really true.If someone really likes you,they will tell you and they will show it to you so you do not need to worry too much about it.
You just have to be contented and know that you're being loved.Be it family or friends,it's still the same.There are so many people in the world.You cannot expect every single one of them to like and respect you unless you're god.You just have to be satisfied that at least there's someone who needs you and cares about you.It doesn't really matter how many people are doing that.Although other people may have a better appearance,character and status,and many people like and respect them,you should never compare yourselves with them.
At least you know that the people who loves and care for you are genuine and are not fake.That it enough.I just realised that it is actually all I need in life.Just a simple thing of knowing that there's at least somebody out there who cares whether I'm alive or not.Imagine that you're dead and no one knows and gives a damn.You have to be contented with what you have.Treasure the people who care for you genuinely and treat them the same way or even better.I don't care if you love me or hate me or don't know me.The thing is I know that I'm being loved and there are actually people who love me.If you're going to be one of them,cool.If you're not,then scram because I 'm not going to spend and sacrifice my time and energy for you.
-unfairness-
The people who work the hardest gets the least benefit.
The people who work the least gets the most benefit.
Good people die.
Bad people live.
Work hard and you get shit.
Play hard and you get the universe.
My mum tells me this is the fate and luck of the person and it can't be controlled.But it is unfair,isn't it?Everyone deserves to be treated in the same way,right?
-stupidity-
Stupidity is when you sacrifice yourself and yet you are the one getting hurt at the end of the day.
Stupidity is waiting for something that will never come.
Stupidity is when you believe other's promise.
Forget it.
I'm not going to ask for anything anymore.
Be it in my family or be it on other matters,I feel like I'm the stupid one.
~Already Home-A Great Big World~
This is a new song that I find relatable and nice(which I've probably added into my list of favourite songs.)The music video is super cool though I didn't get to watch the whole clip.My favourite phrase of the song is 'If only New York wasn't so far away.I promise the city won't get in our way.'
I've even made it into an edit.I just started humming to this phrase ever since I started listening to this song.The story behind this song is quite tragic as it is about two people on a long-distance relationship.That's the saddest thing.
Also I've been hanging out with piano tiles since last week.Like desperately trying to beat my scores and at the same time trying not to get addicted.:P Everyone is talking about it.So why not give it a try?
These few weeks are going to be tough because all the tests are coming up.I need to study even harder and it gets even more boring each day with the same boring routine.Get up.Go school.Go Home.Homework.Stay up late.Sleep.Everyday is the same thing.I have to stay up late until 2am most of the days just to finish my works and do some revision.I miss those times when I can sleep like a pig and not giving a fuck about everything.I don't even get to go out that often now.Not that I want to but it gets boring when you're home everyday.Generally,academically,I've done okay.But then I need to improve more.Especially my chinese): My best friend now is basically my bed but sometimes I'm afraid of falling asleep.That's because I will start dreaming about so many people.Which I had these days.I dream of so many people,some of them being my primary school friends and some other people.Every time when I wake up,it feels so cold and scary and my heart will always feel like it has been shot.I have no idea why.
Feeling sleepy after typing this longgggg entry.So I guess this is bye.(:
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