regret.

Have you ever regretted?Be it the thing

s you have done or the ones you have not? There's bound to be regrets in life.But the part that hurts most is not that you have or have not done it,but the fact that it's too late to change the fact already.

In my life,I don't usually regret much.Because what's done already done.I can't change that.But I really regret something right now and this is the greatest regret ever.It's that I took someone for granted.

You should always treasure the people by your side right now because one day when they're gone,you'll never have the chance to be like that anymore.

Maybe I thought that I could end all this. Maybe I thought that it would be better for everyone.Maybe I thought that there were no more reasons for me to hold
 on anymore. Maybe I thought that this was the best choice. So I locked up everything in a vault in the bottom of my heart.I kept it untouched.I pretended.I lied to myself.I forced myself to give up.

Until one day,my friend showed me this picture.

That was when the door of the vault at the bottom of my heart opened.She's been though the same things as me so she understands what it's like.Ever since the presence of this picture,I just realised that I've actually wasted so many months just trying to forget and pretend.But the truth is that the only thing I'be been lying to myself all along.

The only reason why I let go was because I was too tired. Too tired of waiting...I've been waiting everyday.But nothing really happened.It was just too hard to hold on.Disappointment engulfed me every time,wondering when things will become the same again.But it never did.It never happened.Memories haunt me everyday and I was getting sick of it. I guess I got too tired of waiting.So I stopped.Disappointment turned into anger then fatigue then nonchalance and now regret.

Maybe I had that misconception that that person will be there forever.I guess nothing lasts forever.

I totally regret doing that.If only I had waited longer.If only I had tolerated a little more.If only I treasured more.If only I held on a little tighter.

Its all too late now.

No use wishing a time machine would appear because it will never.Nothing will be the same again.All I can do is to regret and shut up.

I'm trapped.Trapped because I can't go back neither can I move on.It's so suffocating. I can't breathe. It's choking me everyday. What am I supposed to do?Especially if I have claustrophobia? 

So go to your closest family/friend/person and treasure them.Tell them you love them and you will be there for them.Appreciate all that they have done for you.Tell them you love them.Do everything you need right now so that you will not regret.They are the most important people in your life.Trust me,you can't live without them.You will die without them.

xoxo                                                                  

         sher