another pit-stop, another sad poetry

Sometimes I really wish I could isolate myself from everyone else, shun away from this terrible world because nothing seem to be going right at all.

I feel myself tensing up and shivering every day. When the night comes, tears roll down my face, thinking about every thing, every thing...

Nobody seem to understand at all, nobody seem to care how hard I'm trying, controlling, holding it in. I'm trying...trying not to fall apart, break down. And so they aggravate it, make it worse.

It's so lonely and cold, every single day. I feel as if I'm worthless. I'm so tired I could faint. In a room full of strangers, I feel insecure, I feel scared. I could still remember vividly those eyes that met mine. My hands were shaking.

I put in all my heart and soul, yet still do everything so badly. I love what I do , yet get criticized all the time. This will just be a never-ending story of how suckish my life is and unless someone can start to realise that and stop picking on me, it will just be an endless cycle.

Dear everyone, I'm a human being too. I have feelings. I understand the challenges that I need to get accustomed to to strengthen my emotional self but please do understanding how life right now is actually demoralising me to the point where I lost hope in everything, lost my passion, lost my happiness and willingness and resilience to try. Stop being a bitch for god's sake and spare a goddamn thought for me.

I have enough of this. Let me live in peace please, so that I don't have to be anxious over every single little thing.