Another episode of life, another chapter read. Life is really unpredictable and full of changes.Most of the time, I can never seem to get used to all these differences and how some things can change drastically. Everything seem to happen in a blink of an eye.The thought of it is just so scary.
Just recently, we have all lost a really good friend of ours and it was really saddening and the whole week was just full of misery and tension.Everything was so complicated. What strike me the most was that I never imagine that there would be a day like that, where I have to face the loss of my friend,sitting in a hall full of people that I may or may not know. But then again, it makes all of us stand united together and I felt this gush of warmth inside me, knowing that I have my friend's support.
I would say, these 2 weeks have been the saddest and the happiest week in this whole year. To be honest, some things aren't as bad as they seem and even if they are, I have learnt to put away all the negative vibes to make room for positive ones.I mean like initially, I was really upset about school and everything but this term, things just became better, or maybe it's just me putting in effort to not make myself feel so depressed all the time.
This feeling keeps coming back to me,this feeling of familiarity and bliss. I don't know how it came here but I just feel it,every year. I've learn to let go of what didn't went well and told myself it was okay and I don't have to keep blaming myself for the mistakes. Didn't do well for a test?It;s okay,you're just learning.Don't be too hard to yourself and I am a living example of how thinking positively will lead to more happiness.
And I would really like to confess that at the beginning, I really hated my class so much that I cried everyday.But now, everything just feels so different, I don't really hate my class anymore. Besides, I am even more grateful and thankful for those around me,for I have realised that they do actually bring joy and laughter to my life and that I should treasure them dearly.
Particularly after all the sad stuff happened and celebrating Racial Harmony Day, I could really feel the class getting closer to each other and becoming more cooperative and bonded.Although it really isn't much, but at least there is an improvement,We were even the sec 3 class with the most people putting on our ethnic costume.I can't help to say that I'm proud of all of them.My class is still kind of segregated and there is tension between everyone but I also would like to say that I really enjoy lesson time and look forward to come to school now because lessons get quite entertaining with the people around.It has been long since I had this feeling,where boys and girls alike can joke together,laugh together.
Ever since that incident, I have learnt that my problems are actually so small compared to the loss of someone. I suddenly felt that I could solve all of my problems and that I actually needn't worry so much.
However, I really don't want this feeling to end here and then everything goes back to the past again.I want this feeling to stay,feeling of being attached to the class,the sense of belonging.Please don't end here.
I think we all should really cherish and appreciate every single one around us and be open to new challenges and changes. You have to realise that life is not always smooth-sailing so you have to be prepared to take the fall as well as climb the mountains.Just remember:things will get better.
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