when i grow up

Lights flashing in my eyes 
I hear their laugh in my ears
It was a kind of innocent bliss 
I did whatever I wanted to

Ten years down the road
Stuck in hours of repeating the same notes 
All their words in my head are a blur 
Time was running slow 

Not good at this 
Not good at that 
Not fit enough to fit in 
I wanted to do whatever I did

Sometimes I close my eyes 
And think to myself
How I wish I could go back 
And be myself again