Anyways, before this year end, I just wanted to pen down my last few thoughts of the year. I just thought about how growing up makes so much of a difference in my life. It's like with the passing of time, you realise that some things aren't as important any more or are more important than you thought it was. You become more used to hardships and accustomed to pain and stress and you are immune to the pain it causes you.And when you've been through enough of these things, you would realise that you actually grew older,became wiser and stronger than you were.
For me, I personally think that if whatever happened to me now happened to me when I was younger, I would have escaped reality and not have been able to overcome all these challenges. It surprises me how much stronger I have actually became and I'm really proud of myself and amazed that it is one of the most significant goals I've achieved this year. To me, this year was extremely bitter and was a rocky path to walk on,but still, I managed to complete it without giving up and in return, what I've learnt from it was how tolerant and strong-willed I am. Despite being alone,sad and tired right now, I still haven't broken down yet and even if I see others who walk down the streets with a thousand things more than me, I won't even feel a tinge of jealousy and even if someone criticise me today, I won't break down like how I used to anymore even though it may hurt me.
And all of these just make me think about growing up. And with these big words comes heavy responsibilities. I'm so thankful that I'm finally able to use these words now that I've actually fulfilled the meaning of it. Growing up isn't just only about hitting puberty and looking better or being able to watch nc16 movies, it's about growing mentally. Growing up is about being matured enough to accept what that is given to you,no matter how good or bad they are. It's about being matured enough to apologise first, or giving in to others. To me, that's what growing up is all about.
For instance, although 2016 had been pretty cruel to me, but nonetheless I don't try to take revenge on others by making their lives hard too just to make myself feel better but instead I try to make people's lives easier despite my troubles so that people don't suffer the same fate as me. I find it really meaningful and also thought that it was a pretty cool move to show that I'm now all grown up.
But then again, although growing up is a good thing because you learn to get used to it and help others to do so, my teenage years are also passing by really quickly.I'll be 16 next year and it's like in another 5 more years,I'll be an adult already and every time I think about how I spent my teenage years,I'll feel really ambivalent about it.Yes,I've had a really enjoyable 3 years as a teen but then again, those will stay as memories and they'll never happen again because time don't stop or go back.I'll never be as young as I am now. And every time I look at my juniors,it just reminds me of how I was like them once and now I'm a senior of the school and all grown up,ready to take my last lap in school as one of the most important leaders in school. It's just all too fast.
Year by year went by in a flash, I'm getting older, my memories are fading, I don't want to leave this behind. Growing up is good, but I don't want to grow out of my teenage years. I want to enjoy my youth while I can and create even more good memories and keep all these memories close to my heart. And with my stronger self, I'm sure I can overcome many more obstacles along the way.It's really crazy and I guess I'd just have to cherish all the little things in life right now.
Once again,thanks for reading my blog where I constantly rant about stuff.I really love and appreciate y'all and may you guys end off 2016 on a good note and start 2017 fresh and happy.May 2017 be good to all of us. That's a wrap for 2016,I'm leaving all the bad memories behind. Most importantly,I've decided to leave him behind,thanks for everything in 2016 but I guess you can't follow me to 2017,goodbye:-)
XOXO,
Sherlyn:)
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